7/2/15

  

Monster

Oh, give me a fighting chance
Discriminate me indiscriminately
Worship me cautiously
And drop me when you
Realize I’m as ruthless as you
Support me blindly, don’t
Let go I can’t stand on my own.
Give me a fighting chance
At least
Love me for a monster
If you must
For the mere sake of addiction, princess
Love me for your own sake of selfishsupport
supportyourselfbitch
Tell me that you love me
Love me for a
Hateful
Hypocrite
Coward
At least I’m not the one lying
You can love me if only for the
Fact we are all lonely, and
No one knows how to deal with lonely
Just love me

Alienation and Best Intentions

Could you just
Bite me with alienation and
Hit me in best intentions
Brand us both with marks
Of mother’s Christmas gifts,
What the hell would you be doing
With them (us) otherwise?
If not for the painkillers
We’d be wakened in
The midst of lovely nights
If not for Valium and marks of love
We’d be gone for good
Correct?

What Are You Waiting For?

What are you waiting

For?

The moon to drop

To your feet and

Beg for your forgiveness for

Not finding the right love of your life

Just yet?

Did you ever think

The moon did that so

The real one would be

That much more of a relief?

Sweetheart, what are you waiting for?

Bells to ring

When you enter a room

So everyone can marvel at how

Beautiful

You are?

I’m quite sure those that know

Would like to keep

The secret amongst themselves.

Darling, what do you want to wait for?

Rain? Sun? The earth to spin back

To fix everything you’ve undone?

My, would that be wonderful.

Because you’re the whole bullet,

Powder, and gun.

So is there anything to wait for?

Because in this odd way I think we’ve already won.

Ha, You’re Sad

Happiness is

Just your good

Punishment in disguise

Yep, I’m your ugly

Karma right now

Aren’t I?

I’m probably right how

Many times have you

Been so uncomprehendingly happy, been

In love or had a new job or had money,

And nobody knew what

To even do with being happy?

So everybody just lost everything because

They couldn’t get their bearings in time?

Happens

People just don’t know what

To do with 

Themselves

That’s why there are starter marriages

And credit card maxes

And psychiatric wards

Been there

Be there

So people if you know

What’s good for

You stop being happy

It’s killing the rest of us

I’m personally on my way out

Be miserable if you have to

Keeping it clean and submitting

To your queen

Whatever he was meaning

You And Your Dumb Fate

You just try to always

Take it as dumb

Fate when our

Song doesn’t play

But if we were held

Together by words as such

We’d have been done

Long before now

That’s why music came before words and you,

You’re the loud first

Beat of the kick drum

And I your faithful second

I know you long to be the violins, dear

The ones everyone comes to hear

I don’t think I’d

Have come to heard

A violin, so soft

Wrong word, so constant

You change and stay the same all at once

And we both do

You and I will always be

The back-and-forth beat

And the crashing last keys

And love
I'm still wondering if any of it should mean a  thing

Record This #6

Well, see dear it’s

Not quite all that simple

I’m afraid all this

Holding back and

Letting go

Business

We hurt each other

We may very well hate each other

For awhile

But we’re unfortunately not in a good state to get rid of one another

So we hold back, we do

It’s all we do

All we ever did

Why we never were in the first place

If we ever were

Cracks In My Rooftop

The day you

Left my dear, a

Crack split in

The rooftop and

I just watched it rain

Until you came home

I thought it would know

If you’re not the one

Then why do our hands

Fit perfectly

Together this way

Anyway?

So what do you have to say?

When you came back the sun was shining,

Your old flowers had all drowned anyway

When you say you’re dreaming of yourself

Lying on my rooftop

You stop and smile like

That’s not actually as far as you got

Just keep it to yourself and blush

Like this can’t really be falling in love

You were young; you were just a girl

With a teardrop

Tattoo underneath

One eye

Who broke all her promises and

Stopped all of traffic just to say hi

Her brother was a nice man

He took my hand and he whispered

“Be nice to her-

I don’t know if she’s

One of the good girls”

We’ll all just sit idly by and

Wait for this story to unfurl

And it was midnight in

Summer I was only

Trying to recover

Because I loved her

Her black sails and her red nails disappearing in the sea

Did you ever see?

Such stupid things

As you and me?

Did you ever see the sails before they disappeared into the sea?

The Goddess

Because you say "Oh, God,"

When I'm the one praying

And why won't you dance with me?

In the street with the violins

And you know it would just please me

Every time when you leave in the morning

And I feel all painful and sore

And I feel all the slams of the doors

I know it’s too much to ask for more.

It's too much to ask for more.

Love, so why won’t you dance with me?

And you sing to all the little boys and girls

But you never sang to me

On my heartstrings you play

Every note that you fucking please

It's too much to ask for more

And yet I keep

Opening up that goddamn door.

Sick of Watching Pain

Even as old as I am

Entailing all the years left 

In my sentence

I'm sick of watching Pain

Written by the people

For the people 

On a loop 

Because I swear the angels that

Save also cause migraines

And every other side effect war wound 

We seem to suffer from

See, being alive is just as common a

Disease as

The plague